Family Ties

Recently it occurred to me that I know nothing about my family. I was oblivious and living in a safe and secure fantasy where everything was all right. But as it turns out my family is fatally flawed and severely broken.

Apparently my cousin is not getting what is rightfully hers, instead her mother spends the money on racing bikes and stuff for herself. Now I understand the reason my grandmother gave her winter boots last year...
My oldest cousin who is not related to me by blood was in some financial problem it turns out. Who did he go to? My grandmother who is not even his biological family! His own mother knew nothing about the problems he had.
And still is unaware.

I guess the first heads up on my family being odd would be the way I learned I had a female cousin. Some day I was with my grandmother at work at the café when suddenly I was introduced to this girl. My cousin.
I was 8.
Not once before had I heard of her existence.




Today was my last day cleaning the restaurant. I nothing not having to go back there again. Very indeed indifferent.
I reek of their stinking dough...

Yaydayfray

Know the feeling of having a great day until someone or something ruins it entirely? I bet you do. Today I had the honor of experiencing it once again.
I was having such a nice day. Exercise, sun, birds singing everything idyllic and very peaceful. Until... Two in the afternoon...... From the it all went downhill.
How is one supposed to just go on like nothing has happened, when suddenly you find out that the question, the crushing and hurting question you just answered, is about to turn out to be wrong.. At least to the authoring person.
"Do you have or have you had a mental disease?" My answer was no, but apparently the doctor thought otherwise.

I have NEVER in my life considered my behavior as part of a mental disease. Now that this doctor throws it at me like this I get sad and kind of furious. Who is he to tell me whether I was mentally disturbed or not?? The guy doesn't even know me pff..


I guess I just have to settle with him signing the papers...

That damn Driver's License

So basically I work, attend these theory lessons for a Driver's License and drive around in a Mercedes with my teacher. Life is pretty sweet, eh? Well at least I have an income now.
I am getting tired of trying to achieve this license. I never wanted it to begin with. First it was okay since it was new and interesting, but now that I have spent some weeks on it it quite frankly is getting boring. Lessons are boring, driving is boring and I just want to quit. The tests are getting worse and worse in the beginning I was able to pass if it had been a real one, but now not so much....
Oh well..

Anyway I was driving with this journalist last Tuesday. That was quite funny. It was something new and having a backseat passenger made me try to do even better than usual. I took part in her interview and as a thank you she wanted to give me a book called "Woman know your car". I do not know what to expect of the book anyway.