When you thought all hope was lost they return.

Quite frankly it confuzzles the heck out of me! After so many months things are actually starting to go back to "normal". A state which I have long stopped to expect to get back to. What is happening to the world?? If everything is returning to this then why change it in the first place? Leave me unhappy and miserable for months and then when I settle with it and accept my fate then POW it starts to go back... Is that toying with me or what!? I need to sit down.

I am going back to school tomorrow. I really wish there was some other option, but I guess that is not possible. I keep wishing I get involved in an accident and my dreams are about vanishing and no longer being visible to the people around me. Quite appealing in fact. In my dreams animals are able to sense me, but people cannot. I guess I was sad in the dream when I realized I could never touch my beloved dog ever again. The mere thought of that can at some times of the day bring me to tears.

Like some songs for instance. Out of the blue I can burst into tears. Fortunately so far nobody has ever witnessed my pathetic behavior what I know of at least. I guess it looks kind of funny when an eighteen-year-old girl jogs in the street and suddenly starts to cry.

Excellent reason for running when it is dark!