Living in nightmare-mode

I feel like I am not living at the moment. Nothing seems real anymore neither seems anything to matter. Everything is an illusion and nothing is what it seems.

Hate and love love and hate. Hate to love love to hate. Numb.

Tomorrow something weird will happen to my hair. I will dye it. And it is possible that it is going to die from it. But I do not really care. I dye it. I hope to get some kind of blonde color out of it. But with my luck it will probably turn out orange making me a carrot. Well that will be kind of funny! I look forward to dying it with my friends. During our Star Wars Night 2.0!

May the force be with you!

xoxo