Will

I wonder how many people actually saw me. If they noticed - oh, please let them not have! I would feel so ashamed.. How I did everything so wrong. So wrong..

Shame on me.

I feel fine

I have to show this website to someone. Regardless that nobody follows me I am going to post a link to the site. It is so pretty. I really like it. It makes me happy in some weird way.

http://wefeelfine.org/

So many voices. I had no idea anything could be so beautiful.

No sleep for the wicked

The Academy Awards was great! I love spending an entire night at the movies with one of my best friends. I was quite afraid I might not have been able to go anyway since I was feeling so bad from being hungover. Stupid freakin' alcohol! I should never have drunk so much.. But what can one do when caught in the moment and a grand price in sight? Right? I know it was stupid.

TMI!

I spent most of the night between saturday and sunday with my head in the toilet crying my eyes out because my stomach and head hurt so bad. Puking is definitely something I despise. I could not even eat anything even though I knew that was probably the only thing that could make me feel a little better. Great night.....

I do not even know why I would write this. Maybe I like showing myself as a stupid fuck. And the internet seems like a great place to do that! Everybody can have a blog and write something which nobody can use for anything - great! Random rambling!

Oh, and I really enjoyed this "musical" clip they showed at the awards! It was so hilarious and we all ended up laughing our heads off! So delightful.

Can I still be your superman?

I honestly do not know what the hell is happening to me. I wish I could see whatever other people see, but I just cannot. It's frustrating and driving me insane. I WANT to see it, but it is just not there. I cannot believe it or them.

Recently I have dug up some really sad songs. It is fucked I know since at the moment I get emotionally raped by songs so easily. Emotional masochism you might as well call it.

I think school might have something to do with it. Who knows?

Speaking of school. Today I had to do an assignment on small-talking. Somehow I managed to touch the subject "blogs". This made me reflect a lot on my own reasons for keeping a blog. Are we just all attention-seeking people with a lot on our minds? Not really wanting to hear whatever other people think or have to say, but merely want to tell our own stories? I kind of think that is the way it works. I am a little disturbed by this (well I would not call it a fact) theory since it will have to include myself. I know I am egocentric, but admitting is such a hard thing. Realization is a bitch.

It seems I have neglected the cooking/recipe part of this blog. I suck.. BUT I will try to do it! I have borrowed this book with delicious-looking recipes that I am just dying to try out! Maybe on Friday with my friend? Oh yeah, that might be very nice :)

So raw

Today I went out dining with my friend. We had a VERY unusual experience with the food! Not only did it take heck of an amount of time to finish it, but we also learned that whatever we knew about eating "properly" was to be reevaluated.

Eating is nevermore simple!

Quite frankly none of us knew how to cut our food into pieces without making it collapse completely and just look like a big mess on a plate. We laughed and found it hilarious that after 18 years of being human none of us could eat a raw burger without difficulties.

One day we shall learn it and master it!

Mixed

Once upon a time in a kingdom with princes and princesses a common girl with nothing outstanding lived alongside everybody else. This girl seemed to be bored with the way the world was working. She wanted change, she wanted something new, something unexpected.

Maybe one day that will happen. This particular girl does not know yet. She might be end up being disappointed once more. Oh well, nothing new.

xoxo Gossip Girl

So, today I was sick.. Therefore I spent most of the day on the couch covered by a blanket watching a Gossip Girl marathon. Actually quite nice, for once I had a quiet and relaxing day - have not had one of those in a long time!

I was not lazy all day though. I started the day with finishing two assignments which I am actually proud of myself to have done. I kind of did not think I would make it, I tend to never make it. But today I did! ... and then I got sick...... Lovely..

Gossip Girl seriously I love that show! I might even buy a box set one day and watch the first season. Everybody thinks I am wack because I watch it, but I do not really care at all. I love the drama and the predictable story it also makes my own life seem so very simple. I have drama in mine - oh hell yeah - but not as much as these people have. They deal with a lot of other more serious things (which they tend to be the cause of themselves haha).

Last Tuesday I was supposed to eat dinner alone since my family would not be home for dinner. But then I asked a friend if she wanted to come and have dinner with me, and despite all odds she actually said yes please! I was stunned since I had not actually thought she would like to. I was happy too! And it turned out we had a super duper time together! (we always have!). We made vegetarian lasagna from scratch not following any recipe, but using our fantasy instead! It was so amazing and so was the results! So yummy and twice as satisfying as using a recipe :D

Vacation coming up. Going to see a lot of friends.

Bitches and cupcakes

So what I have been doing lately is I have arranged a pretty bitchy photoshoot with my BFF members! It was great, fun and awesomely bitchy!

We decided on featuring cupcakes for the shoot (mine is the green one; chocolate and mint yum!) and it was amazing! Not a chance in hell that we could keep ourselves from laughing, but some of the shots turned out pretty nice (and bitchy!)

You may wonder why we would like to look bitchy, but that origins in the fact that everybody in our class considers the BFFs bitches - so why not go with it?

For the year book we have decided to make these bitchy pictures appear :D I find it extremely funny!

Oh, and we made our own t-shirts for the BFF! Mine is a plain white t-shirt with a happy broccoli and a cute sushi roll! I simply love it!! We all wore white shirts and kinda reminded me of a cheerleading team - funny!